got a phone call last night from my sister. grandmother was taken to the emergency room (up at tyler hospital of all places... they seem questionable at best). she's had a severe case of diarrhea (pleasant isn't it?) since arizona and it's just really gotten worse. they pumped her full of fluids to try to stave of dehydration. there was talk of sending her for a CAT scan as one side of her face was 'drawn' or pulled. sara asked if it was possibly a stroke and dad said the docotors weren't saying that but it was getting implied. the hospital; decided not to admit her. she spent last night up at mom and dad's. and as it sounds she may very well be moving up here from dalton. she's kinda getting resigned to the fact of that, that she can't take care of herself a whole lot anymore...
it makes me sad. she's always had such independance. she's always had such a fiery attitude, and to see her forced to leave her home and live nearer her daughter and all of that... yes i udnerstand the pros of the situation. thirty minutes is a life time in a situation like that could mean life or death... i just want to make sure she's not being forced against her will. i still remember poppa when he had to go into the nursing home. how bad it was, the feeling of betrayal, and hurt and how much he resented it... but yeah he had to go there, he couldn't take care of himself...
she said she'd never been in love with such a spot of earth as her home in dalton. and i just hate to see her have to lose it. have to leave it.
sitting in a class proctering another professor's class. hoping our ellie is ok. hoping that things will be ok in the future...hoping for jobs...hoping and prayinh my rylan's ok that his knee isn't hurting him that he will find a job that he loves and that can support us.. i'm not always sure how many more of these 8ams i can take.
i came home yesterday form work absolutely shattered. could barely function. and i wondered how a single mother handles it, working taking care of kids all of that on her own...i could barely string words together last night. i dont think i want to be doing that when the time comes to have a family...
looked more at folklore and folkculture. and it's really piquing my interest. am debating or thinking, considering doing an iformal study of the mormon culture. i always hear about it, green jello and mini vans.. but no one understands why... maybe this could be of interest...
will keep posted on all of those things...